Halloween

I can't believe it's been a year since the last pumpkin I carved. I did two. One for each of the boys.

A red battery operated light sat inside the larger one. I have to say, it looked good. Just the right amount of creepy. The pumpkin duo sat on TLG's desk for the longest time. M finally tossed them when one shriveled up and the other collapsed on itself. They looked dreadful but still, I felt sad seeing them go... I don't feel like carving a pumpkin this year. There's so much going on. I feel like I've lost my equilibrium. I need to get it back. Or at least, find someone who can help me get there.

Maybe I should carve a pumpkin. Maybe I need something routine and expected.

I just need to know that everything will be ok.